Saturday, July 16, 2011

IN-LAW FRUSTRATION! WHAT DO YOU THING I SHOULD do?

now, i am getting married next month, but as soon as my school year ends im going to try to move in with my in-laws becuase they give me more independence then my mom does.they actually treat me like an adult. for now we go over there during the weekends, i am 17 i have a child Honesty is three months now. im currently a junior in high school but i am scheduled to graduate half a year earlier then my peers. but anyways, my fiance lives with me , he is not my childs father( he was with me since i was 7 weeks pregnant.) i say that to say my babys biological father was american indian and black, im black also n my fiance is black n has a very dark complexion, my daughter is VERY light-skinned, n my in-laws are ALWAYS making fun of her, for example my sister-in law called my daughter rudolf because when Honesty starts to cry when her nose turnes extremely red and shiny :( it almost makes me cry when i think about it because my in-laws are sweet , but they also say things that are sooooo rude, once my father in-law took my baby outside without actually asking me he just took her outside and honesty is very sensitive to light with her eyes he was saying she needs a freaking tan! i get so pissed off, but he is big and tall and loud and he gets upset and offended easily, even his son my future hubby hates arguing with him.to top it off my father in law has a cane becuase his leg is messed up! so his leg could give out with her in his arms , he even told me i couldnt go with him.. i didnt know what to do i just sat down and waited for them to come bak... they themselves are never left alone with her becuase im toooo scared somethng will happen to her, they even wanted her to sleep wit them in their room, my mom in law is big too! idk if she will sleep on my child by accident so i let my baby fall asleep in there room, but when they started turning off lights i said i wanted her bak, they got soo mad saying i dont trust them and i would have to let them do it someday! saying by letting honesty sleep with me im spoiling her! i hate that! not to mention my brother in laws all of them are sooo friikin rough with my baby when they playing with her, no matter what i say when it comes to her formula they do what they want anyways just to keep her quiet! she isnt supposed to have more then 4 ounces and they give her a full 8 ounces and she spit up evrywhere, not to mention the father in-law smokes!... *sigh.. i know this sounds like a million long reasons not to live there, but they let me be an adult, i can actually handle business there, my mom is too much of a cover up and always sheltering me, she wants me be under her knowing that i am miserable, she feeds my baby table food when i dont want her to, and she tries to justify it all the time! idk who to lve with at this point everyone is trying to control my child and im too much of a pussy to do anything about it>:( i feel like im in between people who dont trust me to take care of my daughter or maybe feel like since im a child they can do whatever to my baby and i cant do anything, becuase i get so frustrated i tell my momim gonna leave. :( idk what to do at this point im so stuck any POSITIVE, INFORMATIVE, HELPFUL, HONEST advice will be respected and appreciated< thank you.

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