How can I tell him what I really think?

Okay. Well me and my Boyfriend have been going out for a long time now. And For a lil while now . I have been feeling different for him. We've beenn talkin' about our future. And he's been teeling me how much he loves me. And how he wants to be with me forever. I just don't want to break his heart. Love is a feeling and yoo know if it's there or not. But it's not here for me. I don't feel the same way I used to for him. He's been mean to me before called me names and yoo know I call him names back. But that's when we argue. He told me that the last time he screwed up this is what he said : "Look, Lyssa. i'm sorry. i promise you I'll try harder. I love yoo girl. we may fight and everything, but no matter what happens between us. Nothing will stop me from loving you. Yoo are you and I am me. We sometimes go threw some fights.. But just because we do, doesn't mean we have to automaticall be *** whole to each other. Or me be an *** whole to you. People can say what they want they can hat, like our realationship. That doesn't matter. What me and you have is somethng special. The way I feel for you is the way I've always wanted to feel for a girl. But never could untill you walked into my life. Without you I would have never found true love. You treat me in a way a guy wish for. What we have is what so many people wish they could have , but can never find it. Your the best thing I could ever have. I love yoo Lyssa." But he's told me sorry so many times. Girls some of you probably know how it is. You just don't know if you can believe he's sorry. It's hard for me to trust him. Not about getting with other girls. But believein' if he actullay is sorry. I just don't think he is. I don't know what to do. My family don't like him. Neither do my friends, Now I'm starting to not like him. He used to be sweet. He tells me he loves me all the time. But, I just don't think I love him back anymore. I don't think what we have is what most people wish they could have. He does because he don't know that I don't know about our relationship. I try giving signs that Something is wrong. But he just doesn't see it. How can I just come out and say what I truly feel?